[ His hand stilled at once when Ray grabbed it, holding fast; more force than Ray had ever shown with him, in fact. He was offended, angry, but still a little bit confused. Confusion was all Fraser really had going for him.
He let Ray hold his wrist. If he let it go, it could be seen as permission, but until then... ]
Are you absolutely convinced that I'm doing this out of pity, Ray? To humiliate you? You know me--at least I think you've come to know me. I think you know that my intent is pure. Well--well, I mean that it's well-meaning, not necessarily... [ He blushed and ducked his head. ] Not pure pure. I'm getting all muddled.
[ So much for knowing what he was going to say and getting it all out without confusing Ray more in the process. He chewed on his lip, keeping his eyes down for a moment later, watching Ray's hand where it was squeezed around his own. ]
Look, the fact of the matter is that... That I have both motive and opportunity. It is something of desperation, but I assure you, the desperation is entirely mine. [ He looked back up at Ray now, firm and determined, trying to convey something across to him of that desperation, of his own personal need and not just his making digs at his heartbroken partner. ] It's hard for me to ask you this, to expose myself to you as... Well as anything other than you see every day.
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He let Ray hold his wrist. If he let it go, it could be seen as permission, but until then... ]
Are you absolutely convinced that I'm doing this out of pity, Ray? To humiliate you? You know me--at least I think you've come to know me. I think you know that my intent is pure. Well--well, I mean that it's well-meaning, not necessarily... [ He blushed and ducked his head. ] Not pure pure. I'm getting all muddled.
[ So much for knowing what he was going to say and getting it all out without confusing Ray more in the process. He chewed on his lip, keeping his eyes down for a moment later, watching Ray's hand where it was squeezed around his own. ]
Look, the fact of the matter is that... That I have both motive and opportunity. It is something of desperation, but I assure you, the desperation is entirely mine. [ He looked back up at Ray now, firm and determined, trying to convey something across to him of that desperation, of his own personal need and not just his making digs at his heartbroken partner. ] It's hard for me to ask you this, to expose myself to you as... Well as anything other than you see every day.