[He hadn't even thought about how open a simple word like 'usually' could be. It changed 'i don't go into this' to 'i might go for this' and Ray's left wondering why the fuck he worded it like that. Was he trying to put Fraser down lightly rather than an outright refusal? Or was he unconsciously opening himself up to the touches at his thighs and the careful approach of Fraser?
Shit, he was tired and too full of alcohol to be thinking too deeply on this. Maybe agreeing was the easier option here, the choice that prevented arguments and days of silence and avoidance. Not that allowing this wouldn't raise it's own possible problems.]
You... you're really into this?
[Perhaps Ray wanted this too. What if all those long nights and full days, all those lunches and dinners and increasing urges to stick around with Fraser for as long as possible were just his way of being more than just partners? Perhaps Ray had already started to make this more without even realising. Or perhaps he was full of alcohol and had merely redirected affection that Stella had rejected so easily.
God, why did this have to be so confusing? If Fraser were female would Ray really be hesitating quite so much? Unlikely.]
Yeah. I uh. Yeah.
[Vague but his grip loosens further, now merely resting his hand at Fraser's wrist, but his attention still flickering like he's not entirely certain about keeping eye contact now that the aggression was wavering. It was entirely too difficult to resist that gaze of Benton's though. Pleasure isn't such a bad thing to resist anyway, neither was transcendence... whatever that meant.]
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Shit, he was tired and too full of alcohol to be thinking too deeply on this. Maybe agreeing was the easier option here, the choice that prevented arguments and days of silence and avoidance. Not that allowing this wouldn't raise it's own possible problems.]
You... you're really into this?
[Perhaps Ray wanted this too. What if all those long nights and full days, all those lunches and dinners and increasing urges to stick around with Fraser for as long as possible were just his way of being more than just partners? Perhaps Ray had already started to make this more without even realising. Or perhaps he was full of alcohol and had merely redirected affection that Stella had rejected so easily.
God, why did this have to be so confusing? If Fraser were female would Ray really be hesitating quite so much? Unlikely.]
Yeah. I uh. Yeah.
[Vague but his grip loosens further, now merely resting his hand at Fraser's wrist, but his attention still flickering like he's not entirely certain about keeping eye contact now that the aggression was wavering. It was entirely too difficult to resist that gaze of Benton's though. Pleasure isn't such a bad thing to resist anyway, neither was transcendence... whatever that meant.]