[And then Ray pauses. Sniffs. Glances to the side and scratches fingers through several days worth of stubble along his jaw line.
This was a lot to process for him. A whole lot to agree to in such a short time. Dating Fraser had never been something at the forefront of his mind. It wasn't something he dreamed of or thought deeply about or even realised it could be a possibility. Any feelings he'd ever had for Fraser were strictly excused as normal between friends and working partners, with attractions tucked away so deep he'd never even known they existed. Sure, he knew Fraser was attractive, but everyone knew that. He's not even surprised that Benton's that way inclined, but himself? He's not... well. He's never been with a guy before. Not really been with anyone except Stella and the very occasional rebound that tended to last under twenty four hours.
Agreeing to dating was agreeing that this was something beyond a night of passion and agreeing with the rest of the world that yes, he was banging a dude, thank you very much. It was all kind of... gay.]
You really thought about kissin' me and stuff?
[Because that's also kind of gay. And yet extremely flattering, all things considered. He doesn't know anyone who's admitted to liking him like that since Stella, and even she wasn't the sort of person to be discussing her thoughts and fantasies openly.]
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Uh.
[And then Ray pauses. Sniffs. Glances to the side and scratches fingers through several days worth of stubble along his jaw line.
This was a lot to process for him. A whole lot to agree to in such a short time. Dating Fraser had never been something at the forefront of his mind. It wasn't something he dreamed of or thought deeply about or even realised it could be a possibility. Any feelings he'd ever had for Fraser were strictly excused as normal between friends and working partners, with attractions tucked away so deep he'd never even known they existed. Sure, he knew Fraser was attractive, but everyone knew that. He's not even surprised that Benton's that way inclined, but himself? He's not... well. He's never been with a guy before. Not really been with anyone except Stella and the very occasional rebound that tended to last under twenty four hours.
Agreeing to dating was agreeing that this was something beyond a night of passion and agreeing with the rest of the world that yes, he was banging a dude, thank you very much. It was all kind of... gay.]
You really thought about kissin' me and stuff?
[Because that's also kind of gay. And yet extremely flattering, all things considered. He doesn't know anyone who's admitted to liking him like that since Stella, and even she wasn't the sort of person to be discussing her thoughts and fantasies openly.]