"Of course, but I don't stay dead. Lucifer brings me back."
Once upon a time. Once upon a time, Sam had thought that death was a solution. He'd only been brave enough to try it twice, and Lucifer had made it frighteningly uncomfortable both times. It hadn't been worth it.
"This really is... It's what I have to do, Eliot, that's all. We all have things that we have to do. Hell wants you on their side, they want you to work for them, they want you to torture for them. But this is all just a test for me; one I can't fail, because I have forever to get it done right.
"I have forever, but I won't take that long. I won't. Because every day you're not broken is a day where I am."
Eliot narrowed his eyes at the blatant admission of the trade off. It was
honest, that much he gave Sam, but it wasn't something he intended to give
over if he could help it.
"Guess we'll see which of us lasts longer." Eliot knew it would be Sam.
When forever stretched on for eternity, there was no way Sam would not
eventually break him, it was simply a matter of time.
Seeing there was nothing to say anymore, Eliot shifted and carefully turned
back around so his back was to Sam. He assumed Sam was chained in that
position, used hard and put away wet by the Devil, and as sympathetic as
Eliot was, there was nothing he could do to help. And, really, he was
having trouble staying awake after everything that happened today. So
closing his eyes, Eliot left Sam to deal and he went to sleep.
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Once upon a time. Once upon a time, Sam had thought that death was a solution. He'd only been brave enough to try it twice, and Lucifer had made it frighteningly uncomfortable both times. It hadn't been worth it.
"This really is... It's what I have to do, Eliot, that's all. We all have things that we have to do. Hell wants you on their side, they want you to work for them, they want you to torture for them. But this is all just a test for me; one I can't fail, because I have forever to get it done right.
"I have forever, but I won't take that long. I won't. Because every day you're not broken is a day where I am."
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Eliot narrowed his eyes at the blatant admission of the trade off. It was honest, that much he gave Sam, but it wasn't something he intended to give over if he could help it.
"Guess we'll see which of us lasts longer." Eliot knew it would be Sam. When forever stretched on for eternity, there was no way Sam would not eventually break him, it was simply a matter of time.
Seeing there was nothing to say anymore, Eliot shifted and carefully turned back around so his back was to Sam. He assumed Sam was chained in that position, used hard and put away wet by the Devil, and as sympathetic as Eliot was, there was nothing he could do to help. And, really, he was having trouble staying awake after everything that happened today. So closing his eyes, Eliot left Sam to deal and he went to sleep.