"We are talking about anger here, Fraser, a human emotion. Are you human? Because if you are, human beings feel things. Okay? They feel anger. They feel love. They feel lust and fear. And sometimes, I know you don't want to hear this, sometimes they even cry."
[ It was true. Twice he'd seen Kowalski's badge; twice he had the opportunity to do something about it. But he'd only acknowledged it once, and that was what this was all about. In many ways Fraser and Kowalski were fortunate that he'd done as much as he needed to when they'd discovered him in that hotel room. The options otherwise would have been dire. But that was exactly it. He'd meant to shake Stanley up enough that he'd do the best he could to make sure Fraser never stumbled upon him. He'd been meant to keep Fraser out of the way of the mob forevermore, and it hadn't done any of them the slightest bit of good.
But that moment in the room, when Fraser had walked in and said "Ray!", and Kowalski had looked at him with his hard, impenetrable eyes, and he'd put it all together. Armando Langoustini was Ray Vecchio. It all came together, and Ray had been left standing there looking at the two of them hard, with a sick feeling deepening in his gut second by second--a sick feeling that hadn't even started to let up until he'd felt that gun nestle against the back of his neck in the car.
They'd been building up to this moment. It had been inevitable since the moment that hotel door had opened, and Ray had to wonder whether any explanation would ever be good enough; whether any explanation would ever be welcome.
He drew his bloodied hand away from his jaw, straightening himself on the carpet, bracing himself back so that he can look up the barrel of the gun without straining his neck. Kowalski can't even say it, and Ray doesn't blame him. ]
Yeah, I fucking knew. [ He grit his teeth, pulled himself back half a foot further, staring but not glowering up at the man above him. ] I was deep undercover, and in the space of a week I'd had two cops sniffing around me. Two cops from Chicago. You know what sort of liability that makes me?
[ He ducked his head away, scowled at the ground. ] Got you to keep Fraser the fuck away from Vegas, though, didn't it?
[ He could explain the whole thing in detail, tell Stanley about the attempts on his life, and the fact that he never thought he'd live long enough to have to come back and face the music, tell him about how far Fraser had pushed considering he'd gotten off scot free, and how his reputation had been taking a nose dive as a result. He'd done what he'd needed to do, but Kowalski was rightfully angry, and in some small way Vecchio didn't want to dissuade him from his purpose. They both needed this. Hell, he just needed it over so that he didn't have to watch his back for Stanley as much as everyone else. ]
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But that moment in the room, when Fraser had walked in and said "Ray!", and Kowalski had looked at him with his hard, impenetrable eyes, and he'd put it all together. Armando Langoustini was Ray Vecchio. It all came together, and Ray had been left standing there looking at the two of them hard, with a sick feeling deepening in his gut second by second--a sick feeling that hadn't even started to let up until he'd felt that gun nestle against the back of his neck in the car.
They'd been building up to this moment. It had been inevitable since the moment that hotel door had opened, and Ray had to wonder whether any explanation would ever be good enough; whether any explanation would ever be welcome.
He drew his bloodied hand away from his jaw, straightening himself on the carpet, bracing himself back so that he can look up the barrel of the gun without straining his neck. Kowalski can't even say it, and Ray doesn't blame him. ]
Yeah, I fucking knew. [ He grit his teeth, pulled himself back half a foot further, staring but not glowering up at the man above him. ] I was deep undercover, and in the space of a week I'd had two cops sniffing around me. Two cops from Chicago. You know what sort of liability that makes me?
[ He ducked his head away, scowled at the ground. ] Got you to keep Fraser the fuck away from Vegas, though, didn't it?
[ He could explain the whole thing in detail, tell Stanley about the attempts on his life, and the fact that he never thought he'd live long enough to have to come back and face the music, tell him about how far Fraser had pushed considering he'd gotten off scot free, and how his reputation had been taking a nose dive as a result. He'd done what he'd needed to do, but Kowalski was rightfully angry, and in some small way Vecchio didn't want to dissuade him from his purpose. They both needed this. Hell, he just needed it over so that he didn't have to watch his back for Stanley as much as everyone else. ]